Tuesday 27 April 2010

A bit of me

i didnt really know hero before we started living together; and we only started living together after solemnly promising to do so for ever and ever, it was (as i am sure you can appreciate) a huge leap of faith - and the only reason i could even dream of taking it was because one of my dearest people got married that way, and touch wood, their's does seem to be as good a marriage as it can possibly get.

living together in this way, in a place where hero has yet to develop good social company, with whom he can be himself and yet be understood, is rather difficult for him and therefore for me!! our expressions of frustration, make it worse... however, when the storm wears down at our home; and acceptance, gratitude and humility, rather than expectation or generosity or pride, rule our home - i thank God for His grace in my marriage, i thank God for M.

These past couple of weeks/months have made me wonder what it is to love - and i dont know. I read an excellent lot of short stories culled from the Mahabharata, about pride. I was surprised to find an entire book of short stories only on pride, but they are good. Pride, i found, was to be so sure and content with ones own achievements and qualities to be blind to those in others (and pride comes before a fall). Maybe that is what love is too, to be touched by the beauty that is another human being!

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