Yesterday, after I had climbed up the wall and come down a few times and done some stomach crunches and lay on the ground panting and staring at the ceiling, I felt so COMPLETE. Sometimes I feel like I really want to escape my life, but at that moment I felt like I could simply keep revelling at the simple beauty of it.
How important is food!! Strangely, it comes as a complete surprise to me, but I have finally figured out that my mind and my body need food to function and if I dont give that to it, it ACTUALLY fogs up and shuts down!
Sometimes I wish the kind benevolent universe would personify and lay next to me; but then i wonder if the subtle (subtler than space) aware loving universe want me to drop the gross and the subtle bodies and identify with It? (you know, air really is in the love.)
It is INSANE the number of times that people I work for/with tell me I am selling myself short; you are capable of more than this - why aren't you doing it? Interestingly, Swami Chinmayananda's talks on the Bhagvad Geeta, called The Art of Man Making, starts with this question about the gulf between proficiency and efficiency; this gulf between the capacity to work vs the actual work that we do. To think that the Bhagavad Geeta was written thousands of years ago, is simply crazy - sounds like my favourite mentor speaking to me!
Sometimes I just add so much to my agenda, I keep falling short - if I die today I will get Yamraj to tell me about Nachiketa.
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