5 things

There is much that is going well in life - obviously - but here are a few lists:

5 things that are bumming me no end:

1. The results from the US election - bumming me more than it should, given how little I can do anything about it
2. Money: That I don't have a double income family, and that limits my options on what I can afford to buy..  the sense, and hopefully it is completely wrong, I get is Bhai hasn't invested his finances as well as he could have and I don't understand how he, or for that matter Papa, are budgeting! They seem to be in some kind of denial and don't want to talk about it - and I don't know how to talk about it either.. I wish, I wish that we had words to talk about budgets, and have like, say, 5 major kinds of budgets and then techniques to tweak these. 
3. that the apartment is a mess and I don't have an answer, I can't seem to be able to EVER fix it! I really don't know what I am doing wrong, do I not have the energy, or what is wrong with me!?! the apartment!?! 
4. that Chicory is being weirdly clingy right now.. and it is my fault because he doesn't get his routine, his walks but I don't have a good answer.. but every time he interrupts me while I am trying to do my work, I don't react very nicely. 
5. that Mummy isn't here, and that instead of her Papa is coming - I'm grateful that Papa can come and I'm grateful that Mummy has had her knee fixed now and she is working towards full recovery, but it would have been so much fun if she would have been here now. We would have cleaned the house, done some nice shopping, and bought the new house.
6. Borrowing money from Papa - quite a significant amount too! I hope it doesn't create problems for their budget. I really wish we knew how to speak about money in our family.

so, in summary, messy money, messy house, and a world that is hell bent on creating problems instead of solving them! less time and energy and more things that need them both! 

5 things that I am grateful for:

1. So many things, but let's not jinx them.. so 1, 2, 3, 4 and 5. 

5 goals that I need to achieve:

1. Eat food
2. Prepare work document 
3. Clean house