A revelation :)

Now this is a revelation. I had updated the name of my blog and did not realise that google, stats counter and pretty much everything has gotten updated pretty seamlessly. This is wonderful and not so great, at the same time. There are times I write to people, and there are times I write to myself - they are not entirely different in content but in context.

Take for example, this blog post, which is a tad bit embarrassing now. This post, I am very inclined to explain now, was a trial of "the secret" method... this method, i understand, emphasises on the clarity of goal - unless you know exactly what you want, how can you ever get it? more importantly, i have heard, it works.

Well, news from my end is - it hasn't worked for me, so far. I haven't entirely given up on the idea, and not that I am removing that post - so, not to a huge degree, but I must register this teeny tiny ripple of contradiction that I see. I have grown up believing that happiness is not in things, or situations, or people - happiness is in us. Also, I have heard of the story of the monkey's paw. Also, the first thing on the list was an understanding of the Bhagavad Gita, which explains, as far as I understand it - to enjoy things in life, but to not depend on them for our happiness. To do what we must, and then let nature take over, there is so much we can do, but there is a whole lot more that we can't - this would be depressing, except, our happiness doesn't depend on what nature does or doesn't do. Arjuna's happiness did not depend on whether he won the battle or not; his comfort probably did - but to equate comfort with happiness is stupid - a stupidity that I do often. Arjuna's happiness depended on his freedom, if he depended on things and situations and people - then his happiness was here today and gone tomorrow.

It is like playing monopoly, not that I don't enjoy making houses and getting money in my bank - but when I lose those houses, and the money, I still like the people I am playing with and I have neither gained or not lost when the game wraps up.

Having said that, I have come to the world to play as me, and I think there are a few things that I would very much like to have.