How to make art?

 To live in the world, and find what is obvious to you but nobody else is saying it, that is, to have something to say, (often what is obvious to you is invisible to others) and then 

speak to people, listen to them again, and find out how words are used and learn to speak the language to say it in, (because art is not what you see, but what you can make me see... and make me want to see too, perhaps...)

and now make sure if you have the platform as well - sometimes people have built platforms and you have to ask them to give you a space on it, sometimes you have to build credibility and build your own stage... sometimes you have to show up every day at the same time and so just by sheer repetition you build a stage... 

Oh God! Do not make me compromise too much or too badly!

I have been, for the past 5 years or there about, trying to do 3 things:

• Firstly, feel more satisfied at work by both doing interesting things and getting paid more;
• Then, find a husband - who is kind, smart, handsome, loves me (loves Chicory more), can and wants to take care of a family;
• And finally, live in a beautiful home. 

I have arrived at a half way point with all of it... 

A job that is fun, pays more, with a great team, but that cannot support mat leave or long-service leave that I want to take with a baby. The conversation with the doctor about doing the baby thing solo, as well as, perhaps being set up for a date with a friend of Roopam. And the apartment is definitely coming together - I have sent away the art work to be framed. 

I am pushing a plan, and not trusting the universe enough (and so I want to start meditating, it is time that the Universe and I start talking - often and well). I read something today, so beautiful, it wanted me to want to kiss someone... someone who'd understand why I was so moved by the beauty, or at least someone who was willing to participate in my feeling of it. And I called out to my Soul, please don't make me compromise too much or too badly - let me bask in the light of the universe, let me do it with an equal soulmate... 

oh, my soul, let me be in you now. look out thru my eyes, look at the things you have made.. All Things Shining.